As much as I try, there are moments I find it hard to move on from what happened. There are those moments when it hits me and it hits me hard and makes me angry and sad. I just want to think of ways to make it go away. Just go away, I scream at myself. I want that part of my brain to shut down and spare me the pain.
I’m not angry over things ending, I’m angry and upset over the fact that a little bit of me was killed. I am no longer the person I used to be. The trust and faith I had in people was taken from me and that is what hurts. I struggle to get that part of me back again. I want that part of me back again.
Does that even make sense ? I want my old self back, so I can love again.