The last few days have felt like spring is in the air. The nearly 70 degree temps in the middle of winter was a welcome change for me. It gave me an opportunity to go put some miles on my running shoes and enjoy the warm weather while I can.
Running gives me the opportunity to clear my head and get most of my thinking done or as some would say over thinking. Sometimes it is a way to get my aggravation and frustration out as well.
If you read my previous post (click here) you would know I have been debating about writing an email to my friend of the said post. I have been for days trying to find the right words to say what I have to say without being mean or hurtful.
However, I sit staring at the blank screen for minutes unable to find the right words. In order to distract myself I started to browse Facebook only to see that she posted on her page something which was aimed at me. After having read her remarks, I decided against writing to her. I felt someone who could make disparaging remarks about me, did not deserve an explanation as to why I am upset. The thought that a friendship which spanned over a 2 decades was coming to an abrupt end bothered me and mostly the fact that she chose a public venue such as Facebook to make snide comments, really hurt me.
As tempted as I was to respond or post some comments, I chose the high road of silence. I refuse to be a drama queen or go down to the level of posting my private thoughts on Facebook.
“Sometimes My Greatest Accomplishment is just keeping my mouth shut.”
After having read per posts, I could no longer sit at home. Therefore, I was glad for the spring day that would let me go run for miles and clear my mind.
I ran through the streets of my neighborhood, trying not to think of my friend or why she would do what she did. Even though it hurt me, it made me realize that I should be thankful for the friendships I have and for all those who support and encourage me and know that friendship is a two way street.
It also helped me come to terms with the fact that friendships don’t necessarily last forever. People grow apart and change and want different things and it is ok to let go and move on.
The 8 mile run left me exhausted, but in a better mood. It was time to celebrate some of the friendships I have and cherish. So as usual I headed to the kitchen and baked a chocolate cake to share with a few friends as a token of my appreciation for their friendships.
As sad and disappointing as it maybe, sometimes you have to learn to leave the old behind and embrace the new. My friend and I go back in time and we had lots of great memories together, which I will always cherish. But for now I will hold on to those memories and move forward.